Every one of us has all we need.

Sky of blue and sea of green.

- The Beatles


Friday, January 14, 2011

Something I Wrote on a Piece of Hotel Paper Once

So, sometimes I write poems. Let that sink in.

A couple of nights ago, my dear roommate Jessica and I went to a poetry reading at the True Aggie Cafe. Whenever we go to these readings, I'm always briefly inspired to share something I've written with someone. This feeling usually goes away when I realize how frightening the prospect is. But tonight, I figured, my blog would be a good place to start.

I got the idea for this poem in a hotel in Midway. I was on a trip with my dear friends, Delanie Candace and Melissa, in a fancy resort. Of course there was a pad of hotel paper on the desk in our room. I decided it would be nifty to write a poem about traveling on the fancy paper, which claimed to be "printed with soy ink" and holds the inviting phrase "thoughts, meet paper." I took a piece of the paper home and wrote this poem on it. The poem is named after the hotel. I found out later that Zermatt actually means "on the flat." I wish I had found out that it meant something much more poetic or related to the theme, but what can you do.


Zermatt

In hope of shedding our
usual skin, we leave again
and again.

We ride up and down gold
elevators, shuffle through
airports, and drive over
bridges under a few stars.

Everywhere, someone will
ask, "Where are you from?"
as if this were easily answered.

At night in a hotel, I dream
of trying to fit together
a puzzle of a map,

my sleeping self still
catching up to where
we really are.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

2010.

Okay, I swore I would never have a blog, but 2011 is going to be the year for trying new things. So here I go!

2010 was a crazy year for me! I had a few major changes in my life this year, but I'm pleased to announce that I have adjusted rather well and that 2010 was good to me! If you are going to read my blog more than once, you will soon find that I LOVE making lists. So here is my first list of 2011: things I remember about dearly departed 2010.

In 2010 I...

1. spent Spring Break in a fancy Park City resort with my best friends!
2. finished my freshman year of college.
3. officially declared my major and minor! (English Teaching and Sociology)
4. went to EarthFest and saw Train in concert.
5. heard songs I had written with Garrett on a cd he recorded in a studio.
6. got a new job on campus at the writing center!
7. sang at the Joseph Smith fireside in the Spectrum, and at the CES fireside in Provo.
8. got better grades than I did in high school!

9. drove on the freeway for the first and only time. (shut up.)
10. said "see you in two!" to my boyfriend of 2.5 years as he headed out on his mission to San Fernando California.
11. wrote a lot of letters!

12. was sorted into Hufflepuff at Abbie's Harry Potter birthday party.
13. watched the Winter Olympics!
14. went to many an Aggie basketball game.
15. attended 3 of my roommates weddings in two months!
16. colored with multi-cultural crayons.
17. participated in Walk-a-Mile in Her Shoes.
18. saw pelicans. In Utah.
19. walked for cystic fibrosis.
20. bought two goldfish named Phineas and Ferb.
21. had funerals for two goldfish named Phineas and Ferb.
22. saw the cliff divers at the Mayan.
23. let a large snake squeeze my hand.
24. went to the Chalk Art Festival at the Gateway! And met Captain Jack Sparrow there.
25. went to the Utah Art Festival in Library Square. Win!
26. slept on the trampoline with my sisters.
27. met Elder Bednar.
28. turned 19 at Seven Peaks!
29. went on a road trip with my best friends to San Diego!!
30. took a Western-themed vacation with the fam.
31. rode a horse for the first time!
32. went four-wheeling and boating.
33. saw 4 plays (not all at once): The Foreigner, Scarlet Pimpernel, Suessical and A Midsummer Night's Dream.
34. floated down the Buffalo River. And watched Abbie fall backwards into the river immediately upon sitting in her tube.
35. planted things in a greenhouse!
36. was a winner in a writing contest.


37. found out I love the farmers' market!
38. started singing at the nursing home every Sunday with friends.
39. went to the Harry Potter 7 premiere!
40. rode in the homecoming parade on the SAAVI float.
41. met Jon Schmidt!
42. gave blood.
43. met my amaaazing new roommates: Taylor, Jessica, Shanna and Michelle. They have made the year so much better!
44. got my wisdom teeth out.
45.took a family history class.
46. read a LOT of good books.
47. took water aerobics!
48. tried to be an artist with the oil pastels I got for Christmas.
49. was a fairy for Halloween. I went to the Howl and saw We the Kings!
50. went outdoor ice skating by the temple.
51. learned to make a dog out of a balloon.
52. finally climbed all the way to the waterfall in Adam's Canyon.
53. touched sting rays at the aquarium.
54. made a pretty gangster music video with my sisters.
55. had a glowstick party in the park.
56. went to the paint dance!
57. froze mullet-head Barbie in the freezer.
58. went to Christmas Around the World with the family.
59. volunteered with Storytellers, Aggies for Africa, and SAAVI.
60. memorized the young women's theme in Spanish.
61. decided to start a blog.

Whew! I feel really good about this year! I knew that I didn't want to just sit and "wait" for Garrett to come home, and because of that choice I have really learned to be in charge of my own happiness. Which is priceless! There are a lot of things on this list I thought I would never do. Numbers 42 and 61 are definitely included in that, but so is number 10. If I told my 15/16-year-old self that I would spend half of 2010 "waiting" for a missionary, she would say what a lot of people probably want to say to me: "That is the stupidest thing ever." Well, when you meet someone who ALWAYS lets you choose the music in his car, even if it's The Ting Tings, you have no choice but to do a few stupid things to keep him. And I found out that while waiting for a missionary isn't like living in Candyland or anything, it's pretty good. Thank you to my crazy friends and family for making 2010 not only bearable, but wonderful! I have big plans for 2011! (Turning 20 in Disneyland sound good?)

Happy New Year!